My name is Kellai. I am 36-years-old and I live in Tacoma, Washington. Prior to the jab, I was engaged and had been planning my wedding. I was in the best shape of my life, snowboarding every single day and working out four times a week for two hours each session. I also have three kids (3, 7, and 16) and would take them everywhere and sing to them and spend time with them.
I was nervous about the jab because I wasn’t really against it. I heard others question it, but I didn’t know. I thought they were reading too much into it.
In February, prior to getting the Pfizer jab, I had a bad case of Covid, and the day I got my first Pfizer jab, my papa passed away from Covid. I got my first dose of Pfizer on the 13th of April, 2021, and the second dose of Pfizer on the 5th of May.
The second Pfizer jab was when I had the problems. Ten days later, the medications I was taking for my mental health stopped working. Symptoms of depression and degenerative disc disease came back, but, unfortunately, my doctor thought I just needed a medication change
Then it got worse. On the 29th of June, I woke up with neck pain. I was already going to the doctor that day, but by the time of my appointment in the afternoon my body started to tremble. By the time I got there, I couldn’t sign the forms and I could barely walk when I left the doctor’s office. By that evening, I could not feed myself or sit up by myself. It looked as if I was having a constant conscious seizure. Another symptom I realized was my voice had changed into something I didn’t even recognize. My normal voice now only comes back in an environment I am comfortable with, but it changes and shakes when I am in an uncomfortable environment.
At the hospital they said that my lithium levels were low and they gave me lithium and Benadryl. They also gave me a sedative to relieve the tremors. They didn’t know anything else further to that. Each time I returned to the hospital when it would get bad, they told me it was dehydration and to eat more steak. They have told me unless I am actively bleeding or dying, they cannot and will not help me and to stay home.
I was diagnosed with POTS, heart palpitations, and conversion disorder, which basically means that your brain switches off. My adverse reaction was reported to VAERS on the 7th of July, 2021.
I couldn’t walk for the first three months and I had to use a walker for six months after that. Over the past few months, I have been walking on my own, but I still have to manage the tremors.
This was terrifying for my kids at the beginning and they lived with my sister for a while. They would get scared when I got tremors. My youngest wouldn’t come to me for a few weeks.
They are very helpful now. All my family members do not believe that it was the Pfizer jab. My brother says I am collateral damage, and my sister-in-law wanted to admit me to a hospital for mental health
It was the loneliest and hardest time that I have ever been through, I started isolating. I suddenly was becoming “uncomfortable” to be around because no one talked to me or about me. I didn’t want to be the girl that got injured. I wanted to be the girl who lived her life despite being injured.
I stay away from things that are going to trigger my symptoms. Sometimes my emotions trigger the tremors. Now I am doing stretches and mild workouts, I walk with my dogs three times a day. I can’t do anything for more than an hour to space out what I am doing. I take a multivitamin and a protein shake with collagen powder and protein powder. I don’t eat gluten, dairy, or soy. In addition, I do go to a partial hospitalization program that helps my mental health.
I have been outspoken about it and try to be more active in fighting against the Pfizer jab, but it is draining. My main message is: “ I see you, I hear you, I believe you, I love you, I am you.” There are two types of people: those who are for and those who are against the vaccine. It’s not just one side. I felt like I got caught in the cross-fire. I see how scared everyone is to get and to not get the Pfizer jab.
No matter how loud everyone is, I can still hear how scared you are. I believe that you are scared and I believe the reasons that you are scared.
At the end of the day, it’s about bodily autonomy. I believe you should be made aware of what will happen, but you get to choose if you want it or not. I just want people to take it easy on people on social media and don’t agree and don’t comment. The person they see in the picture is an actual human being. We got through things, too. It’s not just what you see on social media.
Most importantly, I want people to see that something really bad can happen to you, but you can make something really good out of it and still live your life and fight for the things that you think are right